“I just want to drink coffee and make pretty things.”
When I first saw the phrase on Pinterest, it was one of those things that rang true as soon as I read it. I thought, yes, that’s a pretty accurate description of me at the moment. Let me explain…
One of the first things I discovered about myself after Mark passed away was that I draw comfort from looking at pretty things. My main purpose in life for the previous five years had been to be a help meet for my husband/best friend during his/our cancer experience. The Monday after the funeral, I felt as if I were rattling around in an empty world. Perhaps without even realizing it, the first thing I wanted to do was to go somewhere and look at something pretty.
It wasn’t even as though I wanted to buy anything. Just looking things I considered beautiful seemed to do something for me. Wandering aimlessly through aisles of pretty things seemed to help in a way that I still can’t effectively put into words. I’m actually only sharing this because it might be encouraging to someone else.
I discovered that making pretty things was as helpful as looking at them. Creating something beautiful became a refuge for me. This isn’t surprising, I suppose, since art had become a refuge for me in 2011 when Mark was first diagnosed with cancer.
And to think I thought I invented the large intricately decorated vase idea!
There is nothing in this world that can fill a void the size of a loved one you have lost. That’s God’s department. But creating things can really do something for you. Someone mentioned that this could be because we are made in the image of God, and He is, after all, a Creator. That makes sense to me.
Examples of some things I’ve looked at lately.
Naturally just about everything I see I have to try…
Of course it’s not the same not being able to show Mark what I’ve made. I think he would like my Talavera Kitchen and Whimsical Garden. I think he would look at some of my little “creations” the way he looked at my Whimsical Armadillos when he was in the hospital. He would throw his hands up in mock dismay at all the shelves I’ve added to the windowsills for Foster, and I can still hear him jokingly saying “Woman, you’re going to break me!” when I bring home the materials for yet another project.